Some unexpected news.

While I was still in Salt Lake Thursday the 26, I was at my grandpa's house in the middle of getting ready to go shopping for the baby when I got a call from my doctors office. I wasn't expecting any call from them, so I had no idea what it was for. I answered it & the conversation went a little something like this:

{it's not exact, but you'll get the point}

Me: hello?
Lady: Hi, is this Alesha?
Me: Yeah it is.
Lady: This is so&so from Dr. Lunts office, I was calling to give you the results of the ultra sound you had done last Tuesday.
(Oh & might I add... the only 'results' I thought came from an ultra sound, were the sex of the baby)

*me thinking* Uh, I already know it's a boy... why are you supposed to call & tell me something I already know?!

Me: Okay........
Lady: The skin on the back of your baby's neck is thicker than it is supposed to be. This can be an indicator that there might be some kind of Chromosomal Abnormality, such as Trisomy 13, 18 or 21. Also, your baby has dialated kidney's and darkened bowels. All three of those together, would most likely mean, if anything, the baby will have Trisomy 21 (Down Syndrome)

The next part is all a blur & I don't remember everything she said. All I could think about was 'there's something wrong with *my* baby?!'

Without realizing that she had just told me what I needed to do, I hung up with her after telling her I didn't have any questions. I started crying & extremely confused, I ran up stairs to tell my mom what I had just been told. I really had no idea what I was talking about, except the part about something being wrong with my son. She asked me what I was supposed to do, & I told her that I had no idea.... I couldn't pay attention to what the lady was telling me. So she called the office back & talked to the lady I had just talked to. We found out that I needed to call & make an appointment to see a specialist, to get some testing done & also get a more detailed ultra sound. This was to get better pictures of the 'problems' & have them looked at by someone that knows more about this kind of issue, than just a normal radiologist. So we called & did that. I have an appointment on July 1 with them. I'm really glad they were able to get me in so quickly!
Although I had my mom with me, I felt so alone. Ryan was back home in St. George & there was no way I wanted to tell him about this over the phone. I had to wait until I got home Thursday night to tell him. And I had no idea how he was going to take this news, or how it would affect him. I know so little about this, so I didn't know how I was supposed to explain it or answer any questions he would have. He kind of reacted just like I did... confused, worried, scared... wondering what was going to happen. He's gonna go to my appointment with me, so hopefully we can get a better understanding of everything together.


Even though it's only been a few days since then, I've done a lot of thinking on this issue. I know one thing for sure... I already love this baby more than anything in this world. He is my son, & no matter what.... I will love him unconditionally. Whether he is 'normal' or has a special quality, I will not love him any different. Abortion was not an option from the start, & having one never even crossed my mind after I got the news. Just because he could be a little different, doesn't mean he shouldn't have a chance at life. I just hope that if by chance he does have something, he won't have any major problems (such as a hole in his heart)

I guess I wait til the first & see what we find out then.

My 18th Birthday!

Whoooo, I'm finally 18 and officially an adult! (:

To celebrate my birthday this year, my mom sent me to Legends salon to get my hair done, along with a mani-pedi. It was greeeaaatttt! I was there pretty much all day, so by the time I got home it was dinner time! My mom made some steak & potatoes. Ashlyn & Riley, Amanda & Bryce, and Greg all came over to celebrate. After dinner, we had some mint chocolate chip ice cream cake! mmmm! (: Thanks for everything, mama! I had a wonderful birthday!

{my new hair! wish I would of had time to style it, instead of just pin it back, though!}

After cake, Ryan & some of our friends came to get me to go celebrate with them. We just hung out & had a fun night! (:

It's a. . . .

BOY!!!

We are SO proud to announce that
Mr. Bransyn Tabet is on his way!!! (:


The proof ;) definitely NOT a girl!

His little skeleton face!

His hand, with a 'thumbs up' (:

This is just a picture I took of the video... he was sucking his thumb & I thought it was ADORBS!

Another picture from the video... his left leg & foot! So cute (:



Here's how the appointment went:

Our appointment was at 1:00 pm. Ryan & I drove there & met up with my mom, Amanda & Bryce (they had just gotten done with one of Amanda's baby appointments) We had to wait for a while, so we asked everyone what we thought the baby was gonna be. Ryan, Bryce & Amanda all said a boy... Mom said girl, lol. & I said that I really didn't know! haha. So we finally get back there & all set up & the tech starts. And WOW, my little hampster lookin child turned into a baby in just 9 short weeks! It was so crazy to see all of his features & have him look so big, but really be SO small! I instantly got tears in my eyes.. it is SO amazing getting to see your little baby before they are born. She got all of the measurements & whole anatomy scan, then we stuck our video tape in to record the rest of the ultra sound, of him just moving around. Then she asked me & Ryan if we wanted to know the sex of the baby. We both said YES super quick! haha, we were so anxious. Then she asked us if we could tell what it was. Ryan was like 'Just say it's a boy! Please just say it's a boy!' And the tech replied to that with, 'Ohhh, it's a boy all right!' Then showed us the proof, there was no mistaking this little man for a girl! :) Then the tears just came pouring out of my eyes! Not tears of sadness that we were having a boy, they were the happiest tears I have ever cried! It was so good to finally know who was living inside of me. To be able to call my baby by his name. To know that I was gonna have a son. Ryan just kissed me on the head & hugged me. We were both SO excited! I'll admit that in the very beginning of my pregnancy, I was leaning more towards wanting a girl... but the more I thought about having a boy, the more I wanted one. I really would of been perfectly fine with whatever, but I really am so excited to be having a little boy first. We continued watching our little boy on the ultra sound for a little while longer. It was so crazy to feel him moving inside of me, AND be able to watch him at the same time! Then she finished up, I wiped all the goop off my belly & she gave us the pictures of our handsome little boy! (: Then we were off to share the news with everyone! But first, I had to pee! haha. I had to drink all that water & had to hold it til we were done with the ultra sound. Then I first called my grandma Jeanette to tell her, since she was wanting to come down for the ultra sound, but couldn't make it due to car trouble. So I had promised to call her right after we found out. And of course, she talked foreverrrr! haha. But I always love talking to my grandma. Then since I was wanting to go shopping right after we found out, we went over to Target since we were right by there. We got back to the baby section, & I finally got off the phone with my grandma. Called my grandma Nancy, to let her know. Then sent the 'announcement text' out to everyone, that read: 'It's a boy! Baby Bransyn' Then came the stream of 'Congratulations' & 'I'm so excited' texts from everyone! haha. Ryan had also sent out a text to everyone, so we were both on our phones trying to keep up with all the texts we were receiving. After a while of sitting on the display glider chair, we both decided to turn our phones off so we could do what we went there to do. So we looked around for a while, then we both decided that we were really hungry & we would come back after we ate. So we went across the street & down the road a little bit to Gandolfo's & got a sandwich! Then we went over to the Orange Peel to get a smoothie. Then it was back to target to get some stuff for our little boy! We just got a few onesies, blankets, socks & jammies from there, then decided we would go somewhere else another day to look around. We went to Ryan's moms work for a while & he went in & told her the news & showed her the pictures. Then it was just kind of like a normal day after that. (:
I am SO excited to shop, & choose everything out for the baby! I've been looking online at carseats, strollers, swings, bouncers, ect. and now I can finally start narrowing it down to only boy things & make a decision!

I am SO much more excited about this baby now & can't wait to meet HIM! (:

Name game.

We have figured out what the baby's name will be:
For a boy: Bransyn
For a girl: Brynlie Jane
We don't have a middle name picked out for a boy, yet. The first name came easy... we just can't figure out a name that sounds good with Bransyn! haha (: Brynli Jane, I just think flows really good together & is SO cute! I don't even know how the middle name came up... it just popped into my head & I liked it! So glad we at least have that part figured out now. Three more days until we start calling this kid by his/her name!!!

18 weeks!

I am now 18 weeks along & I had another Dr appointment yesterday! My Dr was out of town, so they had another nurse practitioner in the office helping out. She measured my uterus & it measured at 17 1/2 weeks, which is on track since I am barely 18 weeks today. So this baby is growing good so far! (: We did not get to hear the baby's heart beat this time, though... which was a bummer. I don't know if the baby was just moving a lot so she couldn't locate the HB, or if this lady just wasn't the best at locating it. Which really made me nervous & Ryan had to calm me down cause I was starting to freak out. But since she couldn't find it... we had to make sure the baby was okay. So she brought in this little ultra sound machine so that we could SEE the heart beating. Luckily, everything was fine. The quality on this machine was not as good as a regular one. The picture wasn't very good and we could not tell if the baby is a boy or girl. She tried getting him/her to move around, but s/he was fassssst asleep, sucking it's thumb! (: That was really cute! I wish we could of gotten a picture of that... but maybe s/he'll do that during the 'big' one & we'll get a good picture! We also know when that ultra sound will be... Tuesday, June 17!!! I was hoping that they would of done it sometime this week, or Monday by the latest.. but I guess I can wait a few more days ;) I am just soooo excited!!! What a great early birthday present it will be... since my birthday is 3 days later! (: I have also been feeling the baby moving a LOT more now! It is such an amazing feeling! We still can't feel any movements from the outside, but hopefully soon! (: